I dabbled in poetry my freshman year of college and largely wrote about what was going on in my life. This is where I first rediscovered my love for word craft and public speaking.
This first piece, "Self Discovery" was an extra credit assignment. After reading it to others, people felt that this was one of my more personal poems. This poem can be described as a conversation between my inner thoughts and drugs.
Self Discovery
Who would think?
That the lines of Shakesperean drama would give me the drink
Of truth serum to make me hear them
Them being the advisers of old and the creators of new
What are you talking about dude?
Just take it easy with thoughts wrongfully construed
Listen to me to calm your mood
What's wrong dude?
You're the problem you lethargic pest
You restrict me from being my very best
Constantly testing my relationships with others
Life with you bothers me and leaves me with unrest
A pressure, ever-present, in my chest
What did I do?
All the pain was brought upon by you
My fingers don't purchase what you need
It's all in your control
To take from the bowl that gives you life
But now it gives you strife?
What gives?
What gives are the genuine friends in my life
The opportunities that present themselves slip away when I'm with you
My accolades, qualities, and achievements are cut down by scythe
Under the influence that sticks to me like glue
I wish to discontinue this partnership that was once so tight
I search for a light
Not exclusive to lighters and burning bowls
But a light that is manifested through my actions as a good Samaritan
And not one that creates fights and holes
But without me, you see
You become complacent with staying at one level
A moment with me and you aren't disheveled
You escape the problems that you face
Return to your happy place
Get a sip of water in this race of life
But don't you see?
Escaping responsibilities and exiting our reality doesn't bring clarity
Being with you is not an irregularity anymore and I become less of a charity
I give and expect nothing in return when away from you
But you take and want more when I'm subdued
Taking advantage of my intrinsic values
I see how it is.
If you can't take the heat get out of the kitchen
Loser.
I'm not the loser when you're as dull as a constant boozer
My absence in conversations and discussion let me cruise through the rapids of life
But I'm on a sinking raft
And I don't mean to sound daft
But enough is enough
I see... Can we still be friends?
I'll be with you til' the very end
There to make amends when the time is right
There to be the light in your moment of plight
There to let go
There to enjoy a show
There to--
Go! Leave me in my time of despair
Truth is you never cared
How I'm doing
How I'm feeling
How you destroy me and rip apart my very core
Goodbye, my companion.
I may return but with lessons from before
So that you can't effect my subconscious anymore
You're noxious
I'm elated by your absence
It doesn't make sense
But neither do you
I bid you, adieu