As I performed more throughout college I wanted to write on a wide array of topics. I would normally write about my life and others around me but I was never able to show any of them to my mother.
This is one of them.
Mother
You smother me with love
But all I did was shove
Another attempt to mend our broken bond
Don't you get it that I'm not fond
Of you
Our relationship is like glue
It binds us from two
But wears out when we're stuck for too
Long
You and I don't get along
But don't you see? When I'm alone I hear a song
A soothing tone that goes to my bones
I'm erratic because I've just had it
Because you never leave me alone
In my time of singularity
I've found clarity
As to why my love for you is a rarity
And it's because I'm tired of you being a charity
Case
I've found my place
In the world in this vast space
The space where it's a race to see who can save their own face
From all the wrong doings they've done and try to efface what happened
Truth is the past never goes away
Until the day you lay
To rest but momma you're the best
I don't wanna see you go
But I love to watch you leave
I just needed a reprieve
So grieve!
At the death of what once was
Have my voice in your head like a buzz
And my good memories of you are starting to fuzz
Trying to remember what was
Our love
That I shoved away
But I don't want to see the day
Where I can shoot you a text that says "hey"
And you don't reply
Thus denying my attempt for a hem
In our relationship that used to be a gem
In the rough
Because childhood was tough
And you were always there
Tousling my hair
Cooling me off with your cool air
Of a motherly gale
Reading me a night time tale
So mother, don't fret when I block your smother
Because you are like no other
I just need time to forgive what you've done
And move on and make you proud that I'm your son.